Ladies night 9/22/2011

2011-09-23T13:51:00.001-06:00

Thursday Ladies night was an epic fail! Went to an "upscale club" but the scenery was very bland and I wasn't the least bit attracted to anyone there. Only one person caught my eye just a tad and he was with a friend and the friend's girlfriend. I was there with two of my girls and just dancing and having a good time but I wasn't feeling up to approaching anyone and the ones that were approaching me were a waste of time. So the semi cute guy was standing with his friend close by and facing my direction so after a few minutes his friend approaches me and starts a conversation and then introduces his friend who will call "Ryan" because I can't remember his name. So this is how our conversation went.
Ryan: "What was your name again?", Me: "Farnaz", Ryan: "What?", Me: "Farnaz- F - A - R - N - A - Z"

At this point Ryan is quiet and not looking too happy. Then his friend asks if I'm originally from here and I told them I was from Iran. Then Ryan makes a comment about how he is geographically challenged and doesn't know where Iran is. Then I ask Ryan "So what do you do?" Ryan replies, "Oh I just follow my friend around and he tries to make my life miserable." I don't even know what to say and as soon as he's finished speaking he turns and literally runs away. Hmmmm....I don't even know what to say about that or what to even think but I just laugh.

The Experiment

2011-09-22T17:00:00.002-06:00

I've decided to conduct a little experiment about relationships, men, and sex. When it comes to men I've never been casual about it at all, I believe in being in love with the person that you call your boyfriend. I believe in only having sex with someone that you're in a relationship with and dating to figure out if he's 'THE ONE' and eventually the next step would be marriage. After several failed relationships and one failed marriage I'm starting to think that maybe my thinking about relationships and men are not correct and that I need to change things up. I started observing everyone else around me and how they interacted with their significant other and I wasn't impressed at all and in fact in most situations it made me thankful for being single. I saw too much conflict and in some cases it was obvious there was no love at all. This all made me think about how I want my relationship to be like with 'THE ONE' and that I want there to be real love and not just the puppy stage love either I wanted love that lasts a lifetime.

So I decided to be the opposite of what I used to be and test out my theory! Here are the rules: love the person for who they are, don't get attached, and don't fall in love. The key here is to completely live in the moment and enjoy every minute. So no analyzing whether he's good for me or not, and only think for the now and not the future. The way I look at it is that you can predict your future or who will stay in your life it all goes with the flow of the Universe, so why not just go with the flow and not try to control the outcome. If it's meant to be it will happen....or so I've been told.

I will start this little experiment tonight, let go of all my inhibitions and just be me free of all doubt and unnecessary thought. The plan is to have fun and enjoy what or who comes your way.

P Factor

Ladies night 9/22/2011

The Experiment